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Wow, I just tried to post a comment in someone's journal and discovered I was blocked. A friendly comment, no less. Never been blocked from someone's journal before. I wish she'd stop being so chicken shit and tell me why I've gone from friend to public enemy number one.

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queue
Oct. 17th, 2004 06:10 pm (UTC)
And I wish you'd just drop it already. It's really getting pretty tiresome. Obviously she isn't going to talk to you about it, and you making a public spectacle of it isn't likely to make her more inclined to do so. In fact, it's led her to do something like banning you from commenting in her journal. Really, please, just drop it.
spwebdesign
Oct. 17th, 2004 06:50 pm (UTC)
Sorry, but I'm not inclined to.

I thought you wanted to stay out of it anyway? If anyone wants me to drop it, then just tell me what I did to make her hate me. That's all I ask, an explanation.
danger_chick
Oct. 18th, 2004 06:37 am (UTC)
That's all I ask, an explanation.

In life we all deserve explanations, but only if the other person is willing to explain. I think you need assume you fucked up bad and pray for acceptance of the lost friendship.

But queue is right; posting about the situation has gone on entirely too long. Certainly, I am have started to like you less for your constant harping on her.
spwebdesign
Oct. 18th, 2004 07:47 am (UTC)
posting about the situation has gone on entirely too long

I've posted publicly about this situation twice, I believe. I'm sorry that y'all have such little patience for that.

I initially assumed I must have fucked up bad, though I can't think of anything I did that would have her even slightly miffed, much less so angry that she feels she must cut her off from her life entirely. With the continued lack of explanation, I start to wonder that maybe she is just crazy, or that someone spread some lie about me that she believed. But I don't know, and I do have an overacive (paranoid) imagination myself.

I have accepted that the friendship is irreparable. Even if she came clean, I don't think I could extend the trust of friendship to her after the way she has treated me. I simply wish an explanation so that I can try to avoid committing the same mistake in the future. And since I believe I have done no wrong, it's hard at the moment to avoid doing this mysterious wrong towards another person.

Anyhow, despite my strong belief that I am entitled to post about whatever I wish in my own journal, and especially about one of the things that troubles me most in my heart right now, I recognize that almost all of my LJ friends are also friends of hers, so I will respect your wishes and stop posting. While I'm not really concerned whether you or queue like me better or less, especially relative to how I feel about someone who was one of my three dearest friends, I do wish you to respect me, and I do wish to likewise respect you. I acknowledge that my posts, though motivated by deep hurt and anger, are an immature way to deal with the situation. I do wish that someone would explain to me, perhaps even in non-specific terms, what I did wrong, but I'll give it a rest in LiveJournal, at least.
danger_chick
Oct. 18th, 2004 08:03 am (UTC)
I've posted publicly about this situation twice, I believe

Maybe publically twice, but protected more than enough times. If I am on some filter that let's me see these slam posts on her, please take me off of it. I don't want to see it ever again. The way you keep railing on this topic is really unpleasant.

I do wish that someone would explain to me, perhaps even in non-specific terms, what I did wrong, but I'll give it a rest in LiveJournal, at least.

You have a right to post about what ever you want. And I really hope that no one explains to you how she feels, because she obviously really doesn't want you to know.
spwebdesign
Oct. 18th, 2004 10:36 am (UTC)
I really hope that no one explains to you how she feels

What I meant by "non-specific terms" was something along the lines of someone saying to me, "You know, Derek, you have a tendency to [insert fault], or you've been known to [whatever]." A generalized alert about my behavior that doesn't implicate her or her feelings at all. Because I feel that whatever I did must be a general character flaw that I'm not aware of, and not an isolated incident directed at her, and I want to improve who I am as a person and never inflict that kind of hurt on another person again.

these slam posts on her...The way you keep railing on this topic is really unpleasant.

I don't think "slam posts" is a fair characterization, since I don't think I've said an unkind thing towards her (other than calling her chicken shit in this public post). I've simply wondered out loud if I've done something to offend her, and when it became clear that I had, inquired what and why there's been a pervading silence about it. Despite her position, I still love her very much.

As for railing on, I will stop posting in LJ about it, as I said in my previous response. Since most of my friends are also (and, for the most part, principally) her friends, it's not fair to you guys to keep embroiling you in this. I hope you don't consider my responses to your comments "railing on." Anyhow, y'all (or you and queue, at least, have made your feelings known, and I will respect that and stop.
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