Panama (spwebdesign) wrote,

I got the following year-end meme from mikz (following a link from fj's journal) and thought, what the heck! It's fun doing these year-in-review recaps!
  1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?

    Had sex with someone I had just met earlier that day...the groom's sister at my ex-girlfriend's wedding, no less. Also, played poker and blackjack at a casino.

  2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

    I didn't make any. I've thought briefly about making resolutions for 2005, but I doubt I will. I never do.

  3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

    Not that I can recall, but the aforementioned groom's sister is pregnant and due sometime in the next couple of months.

  4. Did anyone close to you die?

    My grandmother. Carmela Villarreal. May 22, 1910 - June 5, 2004.

  5. What countries did you visit?

    Panamá and the United Kingdom (both England and Scotland).

  6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

    A relationship that lasts more than a week or two and is about more than just sex.

  7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

    November 2, the day our country (or, more precisely, 51% of it) fucked up.

  8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

    No single achievement, but made big strides towards getting my singing career going. Placed third in my division of the NATS Song and Aria Festival, participated in two New England Conservatory Opera Workshops, auditioned for grad school (unsuccessfully, but gained valuable experience), networked with professional opera singers and other voice professionals, and travelled to London to meet with one of the top voice teachers in the world, who has agreed to take me on as a student if I so wish.

  9. What was your biggest failure?

    The loss of a close friendship, and the inability to find out what I might have done wrong to alienate that friend so that I could apologize and try to make amends and avoid making the same mistake with others in the future.

  10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

    I suffered through a couple of prolonged colds and spent time recovering from an ankle ligament tear suffered in December 2003. Beyond that, nothing but a few bumps and bruises from the various sports I play.

  11. What was the best thing you bought?

    Since I am pretty sure the Tivo was a 2003 purchase, I'd have to say it's a toss-up between my topcoat, my tan jacket, my baggy workman's jeans, my blue-striped shirt, or my Timbuk2 bag.

  12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

    Interestingly enough, JC's. For his birthday, rather than receive gifts, he specifically said he didn't want gifts and instead invited about a dozen of his closest friends to a weekend at Connecticut's casinos. We went to Foxwoods on Friday night and Mohegan Sun on Saturday. He paid for everyone's hotel rooms and made sure we all had a great time. He even helped bankroll a couple of people, helping us turn a huge profit at the blackjack tables that weekend.

  13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

    I've agreed to stop harping about this in my journal, but you all know who.

  14. Where did most of your money go?

    Dan and keyasau3's wedding, the two NEC Opera Workshops, unexpected travel to Panamá, and the trip to London and Edinburgh.

  15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

    Becoming a Finalist in the NATS Song and Aria Festival, getting a chance to meet David Pollard in London, and the San Diego Chargers, who went from 4-12 and the worst team in football last year to 12-4 and one of the top teams this year.

  16. What song will always remind you of 2004?

    "Your Song" and "Heroes," as heard on the Moulin Rouge soundtrack, which I listened to a lot while obsessing over Tamara.

  17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

    • Happier or sadder? Happier. It just seems as though I'm so much more at peace with myself.
    • Thinner or fatter? Only slightly thinner, but in much better shape and far stronger.
    • Richer or poorer? About the same. Still living paycheck to paycheck.

  18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

    Sex. The more you get, the more you want.

  19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

    Worry and complain. I can't get everyone to like me. I just have to know that as long as I'm true to myself and always try to do the right -- or in the absence of right, the best possible -- thing, that's all one has a right to expect.

  20. How will you be spending New Years?

    2004 to 2005 was spent with a small group of friends. 2005 to 2006 will hopefully likewise be spent in a small gathering with either friends or family.

  21. Did you fall in love in 2004?

    I developed a small crush on Tamara and a somewhat bigger one on Ilana, but I did not fall in love with anyone or anything.

  22. How many one-night stands?

    None. Tamara was a Friday-night-through-Monday-morning thing and ME lasted a couple of weeks.

  23. What was your favorite TV program?

    I don't watch much t.v. that isn't NFL football. I guess my favorite program this past year was NFL Primetime, the highlight show on ESPN. That and Scrubs and Celebrity Poker Showdown.

  24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

    No. I can't think of anyone I hate.

  25. What was the best book you read?

    Not an easy question. Perhaps The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. Or Ursula Le Guin's The Left Hand of Darkness. Maybe even Friday Night Lights. Or...heck, I can't remember everything I read this past year!

  26. What was your greatest musical discovery?

    I assume this question isn't referring to my discovery that people with experience and knowledge in the opera business think I have the talent to sing professionally. I guess, in the intended spirit of this question, my answer would have to be the Moulin Rouge soundtrack. I just love the energy and youthful exhuberance in these reinterpretations of classic love songs.

  27. What did you want and get?

    An authentic customized Chargers home jersey, number 22, with "Panama" on the back. Musical accomplishments. Sex with Tamara especially and ME to a lesser extent. A "surprise" 30th birthday party. A kiss from Ilana. For my grandmother's pain to go away.

  28. What did you want and not get?

    A romantic/sexual relationship with Ilana. More of a long-term relationship with Tamara (instead of just a fling). Acceptance into Cincinatti College-Conservatory of Music (in retrospect, probably a blessing in disguise). An explanation regarding #13. A trip to Coiba.

  29. What was your favorite film of this year?

    I don't think there was a 2004 release that I could consider a favorite. Touching the Void was probably the best movie I saw in theaters.

  30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

    I was treated to a "surprise" party by a few friends, celebrating my 30th birthday just the way I had hoped.

  31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

    Not losing both a family member and a close friend.

  32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?

    Jeans and button-down shirts, sometimes unbuttoned or untucked, depending on the situation. I was more aware of things like accessories and blending of styles, textures, colors, etc., in putting a look together.

  33. What kept you sane?

    Who says I was sane? But seriously, knowing that I have friends and family who love me unconditionally.

  34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

    If by "fancy" the question means "most fascinated by," I would have to say Howard Dean. If by "fancy" the questions means "most attracted to in a romantic/sexual way," I'd probably say...I dunno...maybe Emmy Rossum, or Natalie Portman, or...I fancied quite a few, you know.

  35. What political issue stirred you the most?

    The continued erosion of our country's standing principles by the neocons in office.

  36. Who did you miss?

    My grandmothers. keyasau3 when she moved away. #13. A couple of friends who haven't been able to make it to bookclub or flag football recently.

  37. Who was the best new person you met?


  38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.

    Don't be afraid to live life to the fullest, to risk abject failures in the pursuit of the greatest successes, to let it all hang out.

  39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

    I've been lately thinking
    About my life's time
    All the things I've done
    And how it's been
    And I can't help believing
    In my own mind
    I know I'm gonna hate to see it end

    I've seen a lot of sunshine
    Slept out in the rain
    Spent a night or two all on my own
    I've known my lady's pleasures
    Had myself some friends
    And spent a night or two in my own home

    And I have to say it now
    It's been a good life all in all
    It's really fine
    To have a chance to hang around
    And lie there by the fire
    And watch the evening tire
    While all my friends and my old lady
    Sit and pass the pipe around

    And talk of poems and prayers and promises
    And things that we believe in
    How sweet it is to love someone
    How right it is to care
    How long it's been since yesterday
    And what about tomorrow
    And what about our dreams
    And all the memories we share

    The days they pass so quickly now
    Nights are seldom long
    And time around me whispers when it's cold
    The changes somehow frighten me
    Still I have to smile
    It turns me on to think of growing old
    For though my life's been good to me
    There's still so much to do
    So many things my mind has never known
    I'd like to raise a family
    I'd like to sail away
    And dance across the mountains on the moon

    I have to say it now
    It's been a good life all in all
    It's really fine
    To have the chance to hang around
    And lie there by the fire
    And watch the evening tire
    While all my friends and my old lady
    Sit and watch the sun go down

    And talk of poems and prayers and promises
    And things that we believe in
    How sweet it is to love someone
    How right it is to care
    How long it's been since yesterday
    What about tomorrow
    What about our dreams
    And all the memories we share


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